Tuesday, August 4, 2009


Hi! So today officially start my last week of vacations, I have still so homework I haven't done cuz I've been busy resting;), the thing is on saturday I start a new art project but haven't ended yet and I'm starting to get stressed, but defenetly the thing that stress me more is this idea my mom have, the thing is one of her friends is taking her daugther to my school and one of them is entering to 10th grade, so my mom think it was a good idea that she came to my house (tomorrow) so I can teach her how to do art's logbook and how to do it rigth in the IB program, the thing is 1. I don't really want to, cuz nobody told me how to do it, I cry a lot during 10th grade and the result of all my stress and my organization and my obsession to do more things than I'm asked to I ended up beign the best in my art classroom and not failing any subject, in the back on my head I know I should be a nice girl and help her but in my mind is the fact that I do it on my own and I hink everybody should do it too, I've learn so many things about myself in 10th grade and I really think I had grown up a lot, I'm more independ and confident and I discover the real me and how to show it to the world without worrying about what everybody think of me, and the truth is art class has help me througth the process, the other thing is that I'm really competitive and when I do something really good (as my art's prejects and logbook) I'm really carefull because I don't want people copying me I really don't all my effort and all my stress is really to get results for me (I know how selfish that sounds) but is true I see absolutly no point on having all this if the result are for other one and that really piss me off, it most be the thing I hate the most. 2. I do not know this girl and my mom expect me to spent a whole summer vacation- almost over afternoo explain her how 10th grade works, yeah rigth as if I haven't spendt two entire months trying to foget how horrible and stressfull 10th grade is (you know the academic part), because I really want to have anticipation for 11th grade I want to want the first day and the fact that I'm not there yet freaks me out. Idk! I'm just so confused and I really want to get my project done before weekend so I can have three days for getting really for back to school, maybe I'm just putting and excuse for not open myself to a new girl, but really the last time one of my mom´s friends enetr her daugther to my school the girl lasts like a year on the school and all my friend kind-of hate her, and there I was in the middle of them trying not to be cruel. Maybe the girl torn out to be great but Idk, I'm insecure about it and I defenitly don't want to share my art secrets with someone I barely know!
Idk! Help me out!

1 comment:

Gossip said...

Hello... ok.. here's what I think. I think you should help her but you have to set up some rules.. you can teach her how to do the logbook the way it's establish.. and show her how to find her artistic style. I don't think she'll copy you becuase your signature is pretty original and I doubt she's like you. This may be an awesome opportunity for you to make a new friend.

P.S. Only be mean if she copies you!!! :@ lol.