
Hi! So as some of you may know my biggest dream is to get married some day and have a family, but sometimes when everything is quiet and I think about my life, I can't hel wondering if some day I will find my soulmate or if I'm destinate to be alone.
For me getting married is soooo important, and I don't know really why, I guess is because my parents hae a wonderfull marriage and so my grandparents and is something I see myself doing in a few years, however it happens that I'm the only one in my classroom who had never had a boyfriend or any or the thing a boyfriend means, and I'm the one who is more interest in a relationship, a part of me see the good side, you know if I was like most of my friends now I would be regretting relationships I had in sixth grade but another part of me thinks that if I was like most of friends I would be over it, and be more secure about future relationships or whatever.
Deep inside I know that when I grow up and stop beign "girlfriend material" and begin beign "Wife material" I have advantage, because well all my friends may have been girlfriends with the boys we go out or whatever...The thing is now I see myself and everyone else sees me as the one who will get married and hae a family and be all Bree Van de Kamp like, I'm prepared for that but certanly I'm not prepared for spend the rest of my life alone, I had never been alone in my whole life, I'm a twin! so not even when I was an unborn baby.
This is something I think about every day, is not that I'm the only girl who fears this, I have friends in my exact same position...But still I can't help worry about it.
Is curious how girls that aren't interest in a marriage or a serious relationship had have tons of realtionships, when they know they aren't going anywhere, while girls as me and my friends who are interest on that haven't been in a relationship.
Maybe it is because we're all waiting for our Prince charming, while everyone else know they don't want that they just want fun.
I don't know! Tell me what you think
XOXO
Tatis